HOPE

After i think about this things again,again,again and again!!
I thing maybe this is the best one that i can do!
And i hope i'll be better
I know i am not a girl anymore
Now i am a ladies??
Because i'm not yet a woman!
And being adult is really confuse!
U know,sometimes i jut feel that everything just happens
And everything feels like don't give me enough time to understand and think!
Or maybe i just let the chance passed me away??
Argghhh...!!
That's ridicilous if i just stay here
I know what i want
But..i'm not sure that everything will be like what i dream about this whole time
I know there's no second chance for me this time
Maybe..i have forget about those english literature that i want(just for a while)
Because there's some scholarship at China that offering for learning mandarin
And later i'm gonna go to the course place to pay and register my name for those scholarship
I don't know what i am thinking about
It can be 1 years,2 years or more??
It's really hard for me to stay away from my family
But..i think i have to out from here too
I can't just stay hereWorking,helping parents,etc
I am young,I still can study,I still can work
There's a lot of things that i can do
I have to be autonomous!
I have to think about how's my life later?
If i can succeded study those mandarin literature
At least,i have some knowledge that i can share with others people
And i ever think about kindergarden!
Because i love children and i wish that someday i can become a kindergarden teacher
That's all just my dream
And everybody must be have their own dream,right?
Now..what i'm doing is i just through everything that happens to my life
And i hope that someday i can makes my mommy and daddy proud with me
Because i love them!